This past Saturday evening through early Sunday morning I experienced a miscarriage. This pregnancy was definitely off my radar since I am still breastfeeding my youngest child. Only my husband knew about the pregnancy until the miscarriage took place because I felt like something wasn’t quite right. I never experienced pregnancy symptoms. I hadn’t yet visited a doctor.
I knew the miscarriage was imminent once I began spotting about two weeks ago. I know that all spotting doesn’t necessarily mean a miscarriage is a sure thing (with my youngest daughter I experienced a sub chorionic hemorrhage, which can cause bleeding), but with this pregnancy, I just somehow knew. Throughout this time I was able to prepare myself emotionally for what was to come.
During this process I prayed a lot. Some tears fell. I briefly questioned God and then asked Him to forgive me. God is God, and who am I to question Him? He is my hope. I know that He works all together for my good, and He loved this little one more than I ever could.
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
A few other things I’ve learned…
Every pregnancy loss is different. I had experienced a miscarriage at 5 weeks once before, and this one was totally different. I believe I was 8-10 weeks along. I was unprepared for the pain and other symptoms I experienced.
- Do not be afraid to ask for help if you need it. You will need to rest for several days. If someone offers to help, graciously accept it.
- We shouldn’t be afraid to discuss pregnancy loss. It is something that happens to many women and sharing our stories can help us heal.
- Although it may be difficult to hear and read about the joys of other’s pregnancies, we shouldn’t let our pain take away from their joy. It has been difficult for me on facebook the last few weeks since several friends and bloggers are currently expecting. None the less, I should rest in God’s goodness and share their happiness.
- The Lord is always teaching me. A lot of times He teaches through pain and loss. I need to continue to read His Word through heartache, and be open to change and sanctification.
- God’s grace truly is sufficient. At a point during this loss I wasn’t doing so well. I was trying to tough it out, since I didn’t want to wake my family to trek to the emergency room in the middle of the night! I finally decided to wake my husband, and as soon as I did, the worst was over. We stayed awake for a few more hours just to be sure. I am so thankful for God’s grace and mercy.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Some Other Resources During Early Pregnancy Loss
While searching www.etsy.com I discovered beautiful miscarriage necklaces. These are a few that I liked best.
Through all things, my hope remains in my Lord. He is so faithful. I thank Him for upholding me, and for the little ones on this earth that He has graciously given me to love on.