I Don’t Fit In

Today my heart felt heavy. Honestly, it feels that way more often than not.

Whenever I go out in public, I feel this way. It seems as if a cloud has settled over the land.

I don’t fit in. I feel a deep tug inside of me that says so.

I guess this feels so odd to me since I spent so much of my life trying to fit in perfectly. While I was young, I did whatever I could to fit into the rest of the world.

Once I realized that wasn’t the right way to go, I tried to fit into Christian circles. That didn’t work out so well, either.

I’ve wondered if something was wrong with me. My husband has assured me there isn’t. But shouldn’t there be a place where I “fit?”

I’ve wondered if perhaps I simply wasn’t born at the right time. I feel like an old soul, longing for a simpler way of life. While my faith walk is not perfect, I want to be in His will more than anything. I imagine this would be easier if I had been born at a different time.

But wait. I know God created me at this time for a reason. For a purpose.

He created us all for this time. To be lights shining in the darkness.

He did not create us to fit in. If we do, we might need to question if we are walking on the right path.

“If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.

John 15:18‭-‬19 NKJV

Woe to you when all men speak well of you, For so did their fathers to the false prophets.

Luke 6:26 NKJV

The world will hate a homeschooling mama who chooses to remove her children from their system.

Many Christians will hate a woman who has decided that being quiet and submissive is the way to go.

People will wonder why she prefers her home to the world, and why she dresses the way she does.

They will call her legalistic. They will try to convince her that their voice mirrors the will of God.

But a small, still voice tells her differently. The Word of God tells her differently, too.

And while everyone else ridicules, her husband will bless her.

And she truly will be blessed if she is following the Lord.

Friends, I’ve realized that not fitting in is a good thing. It’s a blessed thing!

We can wake up each morning knowing that our purpose on earth is great. If not, we wouldn’t still be here.

So cheers to not fitting in. I hope you are encouraged to walk in your calling today.

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5 thoughts on “I Don’t Fit In

  1. Charlene says:

    What a blessing to read these words. I have often wondered the same thing. The older I get, the more I understand YA put me on this path so I don’t fit in!! I love it

  2. Laurie says:

    “And while everyone else ridicules, her husband will bless her.“

    I believe that is the best reward, but we do long for affirmation from others, don’t we?

    Keep pressing on.
    There is peace that others won’t understand.

    Ridge Haven Homestead

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