What a friend we have in Jesus (Yeshua)!
I must admit, I have been feeling rather alone lately. Well, not exactly alone. I do live with my husband and eight youngest children, and there is rarely a dull moment around here! Rather, I have been feeling alone in my faith. We currently do not attend an assembly of believers. I do think assembling together is important! But I think exposing my children to absolute truth is even more so.
We simply do not fit in with the churches in the area who claim the law is dead and celebrate holidays like Christmas and Easter. We also do not fit in with the Torah observant crowd, which sees each and every Old Testament law as one to be followed.
We do believe that the law is holy and good! We believe it is a reflection of God Himself. At the same time, the Word needs to be rightly divided. And while there are many times when we thought we completely understood the Scriptures, I realize now that I will forever be a student!
When our youngest son was born, we decided not to circumcise him due to a few health issues. We walked into the birth with full intentions to circumcise him, but after he was born he was quite shaky when not held and had borderline low blood sugar. My mama instinct told me that his shakiness was due to an immature nervous system (I was right!) but the hospital performed blood sugar tests without my consent and we were told that if his numbers didn’t rise slightly he would be admitted to the ICU.
Nevermind that standards had recently been changed, and a month earlier, his sugar count numbers were perfectly normal.
I was close to livid. We were told that the only way to avoid the ICU is to feed him formula, and see if his counts were higher that way since my milk hadn’t come in.
It worked, but I was a basket case to feed him formula through the night. My husband and I were extremely angry about the entire situation. The hospital refused to circumcise through this ordeal, and by the time they said all was well and that he could be circumcised, I did not want them to touch my son, and I did not want Moses to endure one more hardship after all of the unnecessary pokes and prods.
So we did not. We went to our pediatrician a few days later, who did not recommend circumcision. He called it a “cosmetic procedure.” That sealed the deal for me. I did not feel like circumcision was necessary Biblically in the first place.
My husband had to do much more thinking and praying after studying the Scriptures than I did. At the time, he was visiting a Torah observant fellowship that looked down on men not growing a beard…surely they would have a problem with us not circumcising our son.
As it turned out, we moved away not too long after this. But yesterday, we watched a video of a service at the congregation. While watching, I noticed several red flags. I felt confirmation about our decision to not visit there any longer.
It is hard to feel like you do not belong anywhere on this earth, and yet know that you do belong to the King of Kings. My heart is worship the Lord is Spirit and in Truth! With my whole heart.
I want to share this experience with other believers, but for now, I can’t. (At least in person!) I’m so thankful for the lovely ladies that I’ve met online who have been on fire for Jesus.
And I’m so thankful for Jesus Himself. What a friend we have in Him! I can meet with Him anywhere, and the Lord’s Spirit in always with me.
I think the closer we get to the end of time, the harder it will be to find true fellowship. I also think the amazing amount of doctrines and the like, bring confusion in a way. Instead of being one body who wholeheartedly follows after our Messiah and His example in life and in death, we cling to doctrines or men and “church fathers” of Catholicism.
We might think that we don’t, but we really do! Just take a look at American Christianity.
But despite all of this, I’m so thankful for the Lord, and for His revealed Word. I’m so thankful for nature, which shouts the glory of God, and I feel brings me into a closer relationship with my Creator.
I’m so thankful for Jesus. What a friend we have in Him.
Thank you so much for hanging out with me today, friends. I hope the Lord’s blessings surround you.